Fearless: Ch. 13

Helloo my lovely readers! See? I'm on time lol.

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I hope you enjoy this chapter, and good luck on your exams!

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I couldn't take anymore shit from Hadeel or anyone ells, she crossed the line.

I have to tell him about this.
I really just have to RIGHT NOW!

After A Couple Of Weeks...

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April 18th , 2012.

Dear Diary,

Yes, I just turned 15 and still writing in my diary. It has been almost 4 months since I first talked to him , I don't believe in love but I think I'm falling for him. I've been talking to him non-stop ever since the new year , and he makes me feel special... Again, I don't believe in love specially not what he put me through. Yes, the Hadeel thing was a whole mix up... I don't think it should happen again right? I don't know. He said it won't... But I mean he never said that he loved me, is he just trying to be a gentlemen and not ruin it?? Or am I being too clingy? I should really just shut up now. Anyway, I can't believe that Ghaida's leaving in June! That's two months away! And America is too far away to travel there two often, it's like 12 hours or more... And the time difference! How am I gonna survive :( !  Ugh enshalla it won't be too long, and besides I have Renad and Reema right! Their just as awesome... And my cousins! I should look at the bright side, she's gonna have fun there!

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You are probably confused right? Well, I told him about the Hadeel thing. And well, let's rewind and tell you what happened!

I have to tell him about this.

I really just have to RIGHT NOW!

I looked for my phone when I realized that I just threw it across the room from anger, oops I guess?  I rushed to my phone like a drug-addict just found their drug. I unlocked it, then opened BBM, and debated whether I should tell him or not.

Me (Typing): Hey your girl friend is bitch

No no that's just gonna confuse him.

Me: Hey.

My heart started beating so fast waiting for him to reply felt like a century.

Him: Hey! What's up?

Ugh.

Me: Well there's something.

Him: What?! Hayfa what's wrong!

Me: Is Hadeel your girlfriend?

Him: Wtf! No! 

Me: THEN WHY IS SHE SENDING ME SHIT ON ASK

Ok. that was too much.

I was mad.

I sent a capture of the questions.

Me: OTHER THAN THAT SHE ACTS BITCHY TO ME AT SCHOOL AND TELLS ME TO BACK OFF FROM YOU?  WTF

I mean I know i'm acting childish, but I was pissed, and also I had all this bottled up for too long, I blew up.

Him: Hayfa she's either understood me acting nice to her as "LOVE" or she's just making shit up!

Me: So you do talk to her!

Him: Yeah she came spoke to me on twitter (DMS) and then we became friends, just not so close friends! Theirs nothing between us!

Me: Then why is she doing this to me!

Him: I DONT KNOW!

Me: Tell her to stop then!

Him: i'm just not gonna talk to her.

Me: No ugh no!

Him: what!

Me: I don't know im sorry

Him: You shouldn't be sorry i'm gonna stop talking to that crazy one.

Me: but ughhh she pisses me off she even gives me dirty looks like wtf!

Him: Ma 3leek mnha! 5la9 ems7i al questions w hy ma tgdr tswi shy..

Me: Okay..

I felt relieved, seriously relieved. I mean I don't know.

I'm just happy pissed relieved then back to being pissed then happy!

I deleted the questions like he told me to.

Him: La t36enha wjh, w 5leek a7sn mnha la t76en rask b ras bzr. W I'm sorry she put you through that, almfro9' glti le mn zman! Walla malha da3i.

omg cuteness he feels bad 

Me: Yeah i guess.

I know i'm being cold, but I don't know. I don't want to seem too easy to get? No! I just want to seem not easy? I don't know how to explain. But yeah, It's not like i'm gonna act all normal with him after that right? I DON'T KNOW I'M WEIRD.

Later on the day, Ghaida, Renad, Reema and I went to eat at some restaurant.

I told them ALL about it, but it did feel kind of awkward to have Reema there because she's Majid's sister! But she doesn't know that I have a tiny crush on him! 

Majid and I are just friends, and I don't want to ruin it with a heart break.

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