Fearless Finale

This is the FINALE of Fearless

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I'm going to miss my friend, and yet she's going to be so far away she'll be close to me in a way. She's my best friend, the one I cried to, and the one I have a billion inside jokes with. No one can ever replace her, although she's going over seas and I'm going to miss her very dearly I will not tell her to stay because that will break her heart even more because she has no choice.

It's been years, and years.

Ghaida is still in America, but this time it's because her husband works there now. She met him in college; it was unexpected love that came from a project they were forced to do together. They used to absulotely hate each other, Hamid (her husband) saw her as a typical saudi girl, while Ghaida thought he was a guy that came here for fun and games. He fell in love with how Ghaida was the most respectful girl he met, how nice she was to him though he knew she hated him; and well, Ghaida fell in love with the way Hamid laughs everytime she spoke with him. She made the player shy, and that's what made Ghaida know that he had true feelings. They got engaged by the end of that semester.  Adorbs; I know.

As for me and Majid?

Well, after Ghaida left to America I became a person everyone hated. I let the dark side come and get me, but not even Majid could've made me feel better. I got depressed after she left, not because she left; I realized my grades were dropping and it was a critical year, my mom was all over with me with my grades. And to make everything worse; I was being bullied by Hadeel. Things with me and Majid weren't working out, the beginning of 2014 was horrible for me. I fell apart from Majid, kept quite and I wasn't the same with him.

He was all ways there for me.

In the third month of 2014, we decided it was best that we breakup. I was heartbroken, but I knew it was for the best. We knew things weren't working out, we were so in love yet we were so apart it felt wrong. He loves me very dearly. We made promises that we didn't break to this day.

He made me promise to wear the infinity ring what ever happens because like he said; Lovers, friends, or even strangers he will always be there for me.

He was the best thing that ever happened to me.

He kept his promise.

In fact, I'm wearing my promise ring and another ring on my left hand ring finger.

Yes, we're engaged and I'm about to walk down the isle.

Goodbye my dearest Diary.

Love forever and always,

Hayfa.

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Oh my god! I can't believe that I just finished my first story!

I really hope you loved my story Fearless, as much I as I loved writing this.

I love you guys so much, and I am excited to announce my upcoming story 

"Confessions of a Saudi Drama Queen"

It's a story inspired by true events!

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Fearless: Ch. 17

OMG OMG OMG
Soooo I was about to start studying then procrastination hit.
And then suddenly I started reading other blogs and  realized that I haven't posted in like a billion months. lol oops?
Even though like no one really cares probably  but like sorry either way
ANYWAY
since i'm not getting a lot of feedback, *cough* WHICH BTW SUCKS *cough*, idk what i'm gonna do but really you guys i need feedback it's like fuel to my brain (omg that sounds so cheesy but whatever)
I LOVE YOU GUYS EVEN THOUGH YOU NEVER GIVE ME LOVE BACK <3
7ub mn 6rf wa7d

I've been writing this story for a year now, and I wasn't planning for it to take this long. It was originally going to last much less than a year, but I got busy from time to time.
This is one the very last chapters of the story!
There will be one or two more chapters as a finale to this story.


i talk too much.

ANYWAYYYY
Here's CHAPTER 17
HOPE YOU GUYS LOVE IT!

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Hello 911? Help me understand this guy.

HayfaA: Stopp playing games

Màjid: We're Majid and Hayfa ;)

HayfaA: Ha. Ha. Ha.

COUPLE   W E E K S    L A T E R

May 15 2012

It's been almost a month since my birthday, and since Majid confessed his love.
We're still together, and I've been better than ever!
Though Ghaida's leaving to the airport at 4 am, we're both in a good place.
We decided to look at the positive and bright side.
It's 4 PM, and we're all preparing for Ghaida's farewell party!!!!
It's a surprise party (SHHHHH!)

Renad, Reema and I were at Ghaida's grandmother's house. That's where Ghaida and her family are going to at 8 to say goodbye to their families, and that's where we're throwing the surprise party!
Ghaida's family is simple, she has her grandmother (her grandfather passed away when she was young), her two aunts and their kids, and her uncle (Reema's father).
Since Reema is Ghaida's cousin it was easy to plan this surprise!

"Hayfa jbtee el cake???" Was the first thing Reema said when I entered through the door, "Y3ni tshufeen feeh cake bydy?" I said sarcastically. "La, oh my god, where is that cake!" She screamed as if she was about to die "Relax drama queen! It's gonna be delivered by 7, ma 5l9t so I told the driver to get it later on".
I went inside, slmt 3la their cousins.

Then someone tapped on my shoulder, I turned around and it was Lamia I screamed and squeezed her as hard as I could, "I MISSED YOU! I HAVEN'T SEEN YOU IN TWO YEARS!!" I said, "I missed you much more boo!, you're gorgeous as usual!"
 Lamia is Ghaida's cousin, she used to always come over with Ghaida but they moved to Jeddah for her dad's work!
 Me: Keef Jeddah? 5la9 rj3to forever?
Lamia: No, bs jeena 3shan 5aly Abdullah (Ghaida's dad)
Me: aw, I already am losing one Flanya can't I gain another?
I was totally bummed that she wasn't back for good, I mean I'm losing one can't I have another? guess not.
Lamia: Ya 7beelk, atleast i'm not a thousand miles away!
Me: Yeah, you're right.
Reema: Yalla let's go upstairs the balloon guys are coming to decorate.
Me & Lamia: yalla.

The balloon people did their job really well.
The place was perfect, there was a banner saying "You'll be Missed Ghaida & AlFolany Family! We Love You"
And two balloon towers on each side of the banner. We invited our close friends as well as Ghaida's cousins and family. The cake arrived, it was an Airplane with ghaida's face inside, it looked really funny but it was perfect.

I'm going to miss my friend, and yet she's going to be so far away she'll be close to me in a way. She's my best friend, the one I cried to, and the one I have a billion inside jokes with. No one can ever replace her, although she's going over seas and I'm going to miss her very dearly I will not tell her to stay because that will break her heart even more because she has no choice.

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Short chapter, I know.
But I really hope you liked this chapter.
It breaks my heart that this story will be ending soon, but all good things must come to an end!
Although the story is COMPLETE FICTION, most of the characters in this story are based on people I know, and I love very dearly.

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Fearless: Ch. 16

omg HIIIIIIII!

So, I hope you guys like this chapter!

And leave me some feedback! Maybe? 

xoxo, Alia! 

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Ghaida's Chat
Ghaida: Heyyy wenk!!! 
Ghaida: Zga wsh 9ar ams!
Ghaida: I want to know everything ASAP!
Ghaida: omg shit.
Ghaida: you need to answer 
Ghaida: IM NOT KIDDING
Ghaida: HAYFA YOU BETTER ANSWER I NEED TO TELL YOU SOMETHING
Ghaida: I'M ABOUT TO CRY
Ghaida: WAKE UP!
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I ignored the fact that I read everyone's messages and went right back to Ghaida

HayfaA: OMG ARE YOU OKAY?

HayfaA: GHAIDA!!!!

HayfaA: PING!!!

HayfaA: PING!!!

Ghaida: IM NOT OKAY

HayfaA: NO SHIT! SHFEEK!

Ghaida: Omg.

Ghaida is writing a message.

I really don't know what to think, I jumped from thinking that she shaved her hair off, to Nasser blackmailing her (Nasser "the ex"), to her DYING! I was really scared for my best friend as I waited anxiously for her to type that freaking message! 

Ghaida: B9eee7 hayfa walla mdre wsh aswy bnfsi, t5ally! We're going to america in less than a month! Apparently they need my dad there earlier! Y3NI WTF! MA AGDR AROO7 HNAK AND START A NEW LIFE? how am I gonna just gonna leave here, im not kidding i cant go live there, im really scared, what if i cant make any friends, and im just a loser, and then you find new friends , and then you forget about me, and then and then and then ughhghgrhg. i dont wanna leave. i want my besties. 

Reading that message really did break my heart. I didn't know what to tell her! I want her here too, I don't want her to leave!!!! But then again, that's not realistic. I mean. It won't be that bad will it?

HayfaA: Omg Ghaida! You WILL be fine, you WILL make friends, and you WILL be happy! They made skype for a reason right? Skype hugs aren't that bad, right? right. And, you'll make tons of friends, and i mean your going to live outside of this shit place! You're gonna have more fun there, and we'll visit u on vacation, and were gonna have so much fun. And you're gonna be fine. I promise you will be fine. Just look at the positive side of things :(

Ghaida: wsh aswy mn doonk bs :(

HayfaA: kly tbn, wallaaa you'll be fine.

Ghaida: Enshalla.

HayfaA: <3

Let's be positive, and look at the bright side. 

That awkward moment when I can make others feel better, but I can't do that to my self.

Stahp hayfa.

be positive.

After that really depressing yet kind of happy and heartfelt convo, I got off my ass, and remembered that I was still in my robe! I brushed my hair and wore my favorite juicy tracksuit. Put on a little bit of make up, I checked my phone and I remembered that I didn't answer the messages I read! Shit!!!!

Renad's Chat
Renad: I NEED TO KNOW TOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

HayfaA: OMGGGGG, I'M NOT TELLING ANYONEEEE,

Renad: Finnnneeeeeeee.

HayfaA: ily

Renad: I think you're in the wrong chat ;)

HayfaA: omg well then.

Renad: ;)

THAT WAS NOT THE WRONG CHAT. Smh. I promise you it wasn't. Shgalt galt wrong chat. 

OMG THIS LOVE THING IS SO WEIRD TO ME.

Reema's Chat
Reema: Eh ;)?
Reema: Hayfa and Majid sitting on a tree k-i-s-s-i-n-g
Reema: nvm ew he's my twin
Reema: I THINK HE LOVES YOUUU
Reema: OMG ANSWER HE'S NOT TELLING ME ANYTHING

HayfaA: I'M NOT TELLLINNGGGGGGGGGG

Reema: You know that I can read his mind?

HayfaA: thats bullshit 

Reema: WELL I DO KNOW HIS PHONES PASSWORD.

HayfaA: We'll see about that ;)

"HAYFA M95EETHA GOMY MN ALNOOM!" My mom yelled through the door, "Gayma hw! Gayma mn zmaaan" I lied. "Mra mbyn, yala enzli." she answered , "YALLA!" , "6ybbb 6yb, al7een jaya" I said as I grabbed my phone,

I took a look at the mirror to check how I looked, put a little vanilla body spray, I love the smell of vanilla!

I went downstairs to my aunts, I greeted them, sat a little with them, nothing interesting...

I was only thinking about Majid, I couldn't stop thinking about him. CAN'T THIS MADNESS STOP! 

"Hayfa 5altk ga3da tklmk!" my mom said as she nudged my knees, as the little bubble of Majid and daydreaming popped, poof. "huh, smi ? sorry knt mfhya shay" I said while making a new bubble, no Hayfa stop making bubbles, stop! PAY ATTENTION HAYFA. "Shwy?" She said teasing me, "Ymkn ktheer." I said admitting, laughing. "Wsh tfkreen feeh bs!" She asked me, "Wla shy!!!" I said as I laughed AGAIN, I laugh when I'm nervous. Why am I nervous! I started playing with my ring, the ring from him. "Mn mta 3ndk 4l 5atam?" My mom asked me, "Reema! She gave it to my for my birthday!" I said smiling, oh shit lying like this makes me so guilty. This guilt it eating me up alive. "Ah ya zeenha 4ogha 7lo" She said, and yes his taste was pretty good. OMG THAT SOUNDED SO WRONG. "Eeee" THIS IS AWKWARDDDDDDDDDDDD

They drifted off into different stories and stuff, and I drifted into Majid-Land. Hehe, that does sound pretty cute.

HayfaA: Heeyyy c:

Màjid: Soooooo we're lovers.

HayfaA: We are?

Màjid: Are we?

HayfaA: Hmmm let me think about that...

Màjid: Let me think for you.

Màjid: We're not lovers.

WHAT WHAT IM LOST WHAT DO YOU MEAN WERE NOT

OMG CALM THE FUCK DOWN HAYFA HE'S JUST PLAYING

OMG OMG OMG

PLAY IT COOOOOL

HayfaA: We're Hayfa and Majid!

Màjid: Nahhhh...

Hello 911? Help me understand this guy.

HayfaA: Stopp playing games

Màjid: We're Majid and Hayfa ;)

HayfaA: Ha. Ha. Ha.

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ok next post will not be in 10 days, it will be in 20 days.

lol jk.

lol maybe I'm not kidding.

maybe just maybe,

xoxo, Alia. 

or is it?

jk

love u guys

xoxo, Alia.

Fearless: Ch. 15

I really can't believe it's been a more than a month since my last post, I AM SO SORRY!

I promise you I didn't stop writing, I just never got the chance to write a new post, and also every time I sat down to write a new chapter, my mind goes BLANK. Anyway, I'm sorry, this long break won't happen anytime soon(I hope!). 

Annnyyywaaayyyyyyyyyy

I hope you guys ENJOYY this chapter!

And thank you all for the support! 

And oh yeaah,  DON'T BE A SILENT READER! lol k bye.

xoxo, Alia.

@AAliaxo

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I opened the note, and here is what is said..
                
            

The is a promise ring.

It's a promise that I will never hurt you.

What ever happens,

Friends or Lovers,

I will always be there for you.

You're my infinity, and this ring is our infinity.

I am in love with you.

- Majid.

Before I knew it, I was DRENCHED in tears. Happy tears actually did exist. I didn't know how to react!! I just wore the ring and stared at the beautiful infinity, it was our infinity. I kept on reading the note , over, over, and over again. It was real, this isn't a dream, HE LOVES ME. I LOVE HIM, it's picture perfect. My phone lit up, it was him . He was mine, he wasn't Hadeel's or any other girl, he loved me. I opened my phone, 

Him: Friends or lovers?

Before I knew it with out even thinking, I typed lovers.

Me: Lovers.

Is this love? Is this how it feels?

NO this is wrong.

I can't 

why do I think this is wrong

why am I so confused.

Him: So, we're lovers?

Me: I suppose so.

He called me.

Shit.

I answered.

Shitty shit!!!!!!

I'm bad at this, I'm awkward, I can't response, I just LAUGH. and and and my laughter is horrid!!!!

omg.

omg,

Him: Hey..

I didn't even respond, I was too busy daydreaming.

Him: Hayfaaaaa

Me: Majiidddddddd

Eww why did i say his name like that.

Him: Hayfaaaa

Me: Hi?

Him: No say my name, 

Me: Why.

Him: Because I love the way you say it.

AWWWWWWWW 

Hayfa stop it, play hard to get.

Me: Majiddd

oops, i'm trying.

Him: I love you , okay? Bye.

He said it so fast, then he hung up.

I thought it was adorable how he said it.

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I changed to my PJs and then jumped onto my bed.

Then I started texting Majid, random silly stuff...

Before knew it, it was 5 AM, shit! My aunts are coming over for breakfast ughhhhhhhhhh...

I slept.

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April 19, 2012.

"Haypa! Haypa peez get awff youwr bwutt" My little cousin yelled in her cute little annoying voice as she pulled my hair. "Ouchhh" I yelled then attacked her, she started running off my bed and screaming, "NANANANA RASK BWANANA" she said sticking her tongue, "heeeyyyyyyy!!! erj3ii!!!!!" she ran off.

"Well it seems like they got their breakfast," I said to my self, I could smell the eggs from my room. At least my mom didn't wake me up to get dressed! Anyway, I went to the bathroom to take a relaxing shower, sang happy songs, and even danced while shampooing my hair! I was in a really good mood considering a got woken up by a kid pulling my hair! After my happy relaxing shower, I put my hair in a towel, and wore my favorite robe. I went to check my phone but it was off, then I remembered that I slept texting Majid! I realized that my cheeks were red from thinking about him when I looked at the mirror! He he he...

I put my phone on the charger, and started at it until it turned on.

As soon as it turned on, I only cared about one person, and it was Majid.

My phone was BLOWING up with notifications, but I ignored them all, and went straight to Majid's chat. 

Him @5:12: Hayfaaaaaa

Him @5:12: Hayoooofa

Him @5:14: Babe?

Him @5:20: Are you asleep?

Him @5:30: Wake up?

Him @5:32 : Okay good night <3

Him @5:43: Talk to me when you wake up ,

asdfghjkl cuuutenesssssssssssssssssssss, u9 Hayfa behave, stop fan-girling!
Ok ok.
What should I say! Okay, it needs to be cute, but settle so he doesn't think I'm crazy over him even though I am, but we need boundaries right? Yes yes right RIGHT ok shut up hayfa. 

Me: Good morning <3

See, settle but cute. OMG HE CALLED ME BABE I JUST NOTICED THAT.
BABE HE CALLED ME BABE HOW HOT IS THAT.
HAYFA CONTROL YOUR HORMONES.
or should I say WHOREmones ha ha ha . lol ok sorry.

I waited 2 minutes for a reply, but he didn't answer so I assumed he's asleep, it's like 12 he'd like wake up at like 4 or something. I threw my phone on my bed, and sat on my vanity's chair. I brushed my hair, applied my hair products and all that stuff. Put very simple make up, BB cream ,tinted lip balm, and a thin line of eyeliner. I always try to keep my make up simple, I was only seeing my aunts anyway so what ever.

omg shit, I forgot to check my other notifications.
I jumped to my phone, and checked my phone.
15 BBM, 23 Twitter
BBM was mostly birthday wishes, except for :

Group chat: (Ghaida, Reema, Renad, Hayfa)
Reema: TELL USSSS
Ghaida: ANSWER KLBA
Renad: I exist too..
Ghaida: OMG YOU GUYS
Renad: What???
Ghaida: I have to tell you guys something
Reema: Then tell us?
Ghaida: But in person
Reema: Tell us now!
Renad: Are you okay?
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Ghaida's Chat
Ghaida: Heyyy wenk!!! 
Ghaida: Zga wsh 9ar ams!
Ghaida: I want to know everything ASAP!
Ghaida: omg shit.
Ghaida: you need to answer 
Ghaida: IM NOT KIDDING
Ghaida: HAYFA YOU BETTER ANSWER I NEED TO TELL YOU SOMETHING
Ghaida: I'M ABOUT TO CRY
Ghaida: WAKE UP!
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Reema's Chat
Reema: Eh ;)?
Reema: Hayfa and Majid sitting on a tree k-i-s-s-i-n-g
Reema: nvm ew he's my twin
Reema: I THINK HE LOVES YOUUU
Reema: OMG ANSWER HE'S NOT TELLING ME ANYTHING
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Renad's Chat
Renad: I NEED TO KNOW TOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
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Fearless: Ch. 14

Majid and I are just friends, and I don't want to ruin it with a heart break.

Anyway... Today is my birthday, and I should enjoy it. No more over-thinking, actually no more thinking at all, about Majid.

I put my diary in the drawer next to my bed, I like to write my thoughts on paper, it's like self therapy! And I really am a private person when it comes to thoughts, so my diary is my go to when I'm upset or when I just need to explode.

I yawned, got off bed, and off to the bathroom I went. I did my daily morning routine, but I put on a bit more makeup today. Considering it was my birthday, I wanted to look pretty I guess. I changed into skinny jeans and a cute shirt, it was simple.

I sat on my the pouf next to my window, and my phone was BLOWING UP with notifications! I replied to all the classic "Happy Birthday" texts and tweets, even Majid wished me a happy birthday. How cute.

Someone knocked on my door, then opened it, I didn't notice I was too busy on my phone. "Hayfa gmti?" Said my brother thinking I was still asleep, "Hw ma tshofni hna?" I laughed at him, "La ma shftkk , yalla enzli t7t" He said walking over then kicking my pouf, "Heeyyyy ella m5dt mkwty!" I said jokingly, "bla glat 7ya w enzli t7t yalllaaa" he said walking out.

I went downstairs to the living room, and as I walked through that door, my lips turned to a huge "o", 

"Happpy Birthday!", the living room had balloons, and there was a huge cupcake cake, it's not a cupcake, its a cake cupcake ! It was beyond a cute! And then next to that was a tiffany bag, the little tiffany bag that every girl needs.
I was so happy. "Omg A7BKMMMMMMMMM" I yelled as I ran to my parents for hug, then hugged my little sister Juju, and Naif. "Tstahleen akthr 7bebti!" My mom said as she hugged me even tighter. Honestly, I am blessed to have a loving family like this.
After opening my gift, which by the way was the "Return to tiffany" double heart necklace, and thanking my parents, and then wearing it, and being the happiest girl ever, my said that my friends are waiting outside for me!
"Eee 9a7, Hayoofti," mama said, "Smi mama," "9a7batk bara bl syara ystnonk!" she replied, I thought she was kidding, why would they be here in the morning! "Tsthbleen!", "La walla!", 
Ghaida called me, I answered quickly , 
Ghaida: Yalla elbsi 3byatk e7na bara
Me: al7eeen  jaytk rk9'
I hugged my mom, wore my 3baya, put on some lipstick, it faded with all the kissing LOL, and went outside! There they were!
I went into the car and hugged them, 
Ghaida, Renad, Reema: Happy birthdayyyyy!
Me: a7bkmm omg shfee alyom kl alnas t7bni
Reema: Okay ween tben nf6rrr?
Me: ummm I want chocolaaateeeee
Reema: Okay then chocolate addict.
We went to Maya the chocolate fondue restaurant, and they sang happy birthday to me, and it was so much fun. I love my friends tbh.
Then we went to Reema's house ...  Didn't i tell you reema's majid's twin? 
Anywayyyyy, when we went to Reema's room.
I forgot my bag in the living room, so I went down there to bring it.
And... MAJID WAS SITTING THERE.
and my bag was next to him...
Me: um my bag is kinda next to you and i kinda need it?
He grabbed it and gave it to me smiling.
Him: here you go
Me: um thanks.
I walked away quickly UGH I'M SO AWKWARD, but before I knew it, he said : And by the way, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
I looked back and smiled.
ugh he's adorable.
And then I went back upstairs to Reema's room.
At night there was a birthday party ! At Reema's!
It was really fun, and Ghaida, Reema , and Renad made the CUTEST video of our memories together, it was so cute it made me cry, and in the end they gave me a gift, it was a nomination  bracelet with my initials and cute charms.
In the end the party when I was about to leave, Reema was walking me to the door with a bag in hand...
Me: Shukran 3la kl shyy allah la y7rmnii mnkm y5ti!
i hugged her,
Reema: *handing me the bag* ha4a mn b39' el has
I kinda understood what she meant, and my face turned into a TOMATO
Me: Meen LOL
Reema: Majoooodiiiiii
she said that winking at me
Me: O9 bsss mabena shy
Reema: Yeaah righhtt, at least that's not what he thinks.
Me: okay byeee reemmaaa i loveee you
Reema: me wla b39' el nassss
she said teasing me
Me: ykfi ennu wjhy glb 6ma6m 5laa99
I said laughing at my self.

I left, and went into the car,
I couldn't wait to see what was in the bag, but the car was dark so I had to wait until I went back home.
I ran to my room, closed the door, and jumped on my bed.
I opened the bag, and there was a small tiny box, and a note.
I opened the box, it was the prettiest ring I have EVER seen, it was an infinity ring... And... the tear went down my cheeks. It wasn't an engagement ring of course!
I opened the note, and here is what is said..
                
            

The is a promise ring.

It's a promise that I will never hurt you.

What ever happens,

Friends or Lovers,

I will always be there for you.

You're my infinity, and this ring is our infinity.

I am in love with you.

- Majid.

Fearless: Ch. 13

Helloo my lovely readers! See? I'm on time lol.

Anyhow , huge thank you to all the nice feedback on my latest chapters!

It means a lot, it's what keeps me going to be honest!

I hope you enjoy this chapter, and good luck on your exams!

xoxo, A.

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I couldn't take anymore shit from Hadeel or anyone ells, she crossed the line.

I have to tell him about this.
I really just have to RIGHT NOW!

After A Couple Of Weeks...

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April 18th , 2012.

Dear Diary,

Yes, I just turned 15 and still writing in my diary. It has been almost 4 months since I first talked to him , I don't believe in love but I think I'm falling for him. I've been talking to him non-stop ever since the new year , and he makes me feel special... Again, I don't believe in love specially not what he put me through. Yes, the Hadeel thing was a whole mix up... I don't think it should happen again right? I don't know. He said it won't... But I mean he never said that he loved me, is he just trying to be a gentlemen and not ruin it?? Or am I being too clingy? I should really just shut up now. Anyway, I can't believe that Ghaida's leaving in June! That's two months away! And America is too far away to travel there two often, it's like 12 hours or more... And the time difference! How am I gonna survive :( !  Ugh enshalla it won't be too long, and besides I have Renad and Reema right! Their just as awesome... And my cousins! I should look at the bright side, she's gonna have fun there!

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You are probably confused right? Well, I told him about the Hadeel thing. And well, let's rewind and tell you what happened!

I have to tell him about this.

I really just have to RIGHT NOW!

I looked for my phone when I realized that I just threw it across the room from anger, oops I guess?  I rushed to my phone like a drug-addict just found their drug. I unlocked it, then opened BBM, and debated whether I should tell him or not.

Me (Typing): Hey your girl friend is bitch

No no that's just gonna confuse him.

Me: Hey.

My heart started beating so fast waiting for him to reply felt like a century.

Him: Hey! What's up?

Ugh.

Me: Well there's something.

Him: What?! Hayfa what's wrong!

Me: Is Hadeel your girlfriend?

Him: Wtf! No! 

Me: THEN WHY IS SHE SENDING ME SHIT ON ASK

Ok. that was too much.

I was mad.

I sent a capture of the questions.

Me: OTHER THAN THAT SHE ACTS BITCHY TO ME AT SCHOOL AND TELLS ME TO BACK OFF FROM YOU?  WTF

I mean I know i'm acting childish, but I was pissed, and also I had all this bottled up for too long, I blew up.

Him: Hayfa she's either understood me acting nice to her as "LOVE" or she's just making shit up!

Me: So you do talk to her!

Him: Yeah she came spoke to me on twitter (DMS) and then we became friends, just not so close friends! Theirs nothing between us!

Me: Then why is she doing this to me!

Him: I DONT KNOW!

Me: Tell her to stop then!

Him: i'm just not gonna talk to her.

Me: No ugh no!

Him: what!

Me: I don't know im sorry

Him: You shouldn't be sorry i'm gonna stop talking to that crazy one.

Me: but ughhh she pisses me off she even gives me dirty looks like wtf!

Him: Ma 3leek mnha! 5la9 ems7i al questions w hy ma tgdr tswi shy..

Me: Okay..

I felt relieved, seriously relieved. I mean I don't know.

I'm just happy pissed relieved then back to being pissed then happy!

I deleted the questions like he told me to.

Him: La t36enha wjh, w 5leek a7sn mnha la t76en rask b ras bzr. W I'm sorry she put you through that, almfro9' glti le mn zman! Walla malha da3i.

omg cuteness he feels bad 

Me: Yeah i guess.

I know i'm being cold, but I don't know. I don't want to seem too easy to get? No! I just want to seem not easy? I don't know how to explain. But yeah, It's not like i'm gonna act all normal with him after that right? I DON'T KNOW I'M WEIRD.

Later on the day, Ghaida, Renad, Reema and I went to eat at some restaurant.

I told them ALL about it, but it did feel kind of awkward to have Reema there because she's Majid's sister! But she doesn't know that I have a tiny crush on him! 

Majid and I are just friends, and I don't want to ruin it with a heart break.

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Fearless: Ch. 12

SO I'M BACK! I'm back after a really unsuspected break from writing lol.
I'm sorry I know I suck but I'm new to the whole blogging thing so please just bare with me!
Okay so we all have or had exams so I guessed that everyone is busy with studying!
Anyway!! Enough with my excuses and let's continue our story!

P.S.
Happy new year you guys! I hope you enjoy 2014 ;*

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I got dressed, then we went to my grandfather's house.
It was fun.

Yesterday was probably one the worst days EVER.
I woke up feeling pathetic for crying and feeling like shit...
I didn't even care enough to check my phone!

I went to the bathroom and took a very long warm shower to relax I guess...
I finished got dresses then faced the reality that I had to check my phone, I mean you have to check your phone to know what's going on in life right?

Anyway. Here's the notifications I had on my screen..

5 BBM
4 Twitter
1 Missed call.

BBM:
1. A broadcast from a friend.

2. My cousin asking if theirs something wrong.

3. Renad asking me if I'm going to lunch with them 
shit I forgot about that.

4. Ghaida checking up on me.

5. Majid saying "Hey" 
UGH HE'S SO COLD.

Twitter:
3 RTs
1 Fave

1 Missed Call:
Renad.

I didn't reply to anyone I just read from the outside..
I thought I'd check my ask.fm since I haven't checked it in a while..
And surprise...
5 Questions.

I kinda got scared because I dont usually get questions, I barely ever open it!

1. Km 3mrk?
- 14

2. Enti 9a7bat Ghaida?
- Ee?

The next three questions I read with my eyes filling up with tears.

3. Stop being such a bitch.
I didn't answer.

4. La ttmel7en 3nd Majid!!
Oh ok so i'm the tmeel7ing bitch now? I ignored the question.

5. HE'S MINE!
OKAY THAT'S IT I'M SHOWING HIM THIS!

I couldn't take anymore shit from Hadeel or anyone ells, she crossed the line.

I have to tell him about this.
I really just have to RIGHT NOW!

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Yes, I know very short chapter! I'm sorry! 
I'm gonna write very soon enshalla!

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xoxo, A.