Fearless: Ch. 10

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We went back to class, and well the day ended with nothing new.

G H A I D A ' S  P . O . V

March 5th, 2012.

So today I decided to tell Hayfa since it's official, i'm going to the united states.

Me: Mama 5la9 aked y3ni bl 9eef ra7 nro7 america 5la9??
Mama: Eee 7bebty, enshalla akeed,
Me: y3ni agol le Hayfa?
Mama: Ewa lazm tgolen lha..
Me: Ya rbeeh uf
Mama: ws3y 9drk, ra7 tnbs6een hnak enshalla!
Me: Bs aby my friends!
Mama: Hnak fee ktheer nas s3odyeen, you'll be fine!!
Me: Enshalla...

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I was really sad, I was excited to live overseas, but then I'm gonna miss everything here! I'm gonna miss my friends, family, everyone! And also I'm gonna miss the little things here...
I should really cheer up, but I have no idea how I should tell Hayfa!
Oh hey i'm gonna live in america for maybe three years, you know no big deal!
This sucks!

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I went to school, then I saw Hayfa. She smiled then walked over to me.

Hayfa: Hallaaa wallaa 
Me: Halla bl zeeeen
She was in a good mood, I shouldn't ruin it.
Me: sh3ndna mrwgeen?
Hayfa: Abd wallaaa, yom al arb3a w weekend w k4a!
Me: Lazm nro7 mkan ya5y zhg mnb mn6ga bl beet!
Hayfa: Alyoom ma agdr bntjm3 3nd 5wally w 7alla!
Me: yooh ajl bro7 3nd Reema wla shy.

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We went to class, and well we had class.
My english teacher forgot some stuff in her office, so she sent me to get them. 
On my way there, I saw Hadeel, I casually smiled and she smiled back. 
Then she stopped in front of me wanting to talk, what does she want!

Hadeel: Enty Ghaida 9a7?
Me: (I smiled tsleekyan) Ewa ana Ghaida!
Hadeel: Oh ana Hadeel! Bs daym ashufk w Rana daym t7ky le 3nk!
Oh so your not dating my cousin lol yeah right.
Me: Ahaaa ya zeenha, shufy ana mrsoola fa lazm aroo7, ashufk b3deen enshalla?
I smiled so she doesn't think I'm lying, honestly the teacher doesn't really care, but the convo was getting a bit awkward!
Hadeel: Oh asfa! Yalla bye.
She walked away, and I continued walking toward the teacher's office, I went it, got the stuff, then went back to class.

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Break time

I HAVE to tell Hayfa and Renad... Reema already knows because well, she's family, literally. This is something I can't help, and isn't in my control, Hayfa and Renad are really understanding... I mean they will be happy for me! And I have to be positive because in life we live for the good, and I can make this into a good thing. People DREAM of living overseas, and I'm sad? I shouldn't be sad, I will have to make the best of this situation.

Hayfa and Renad were sitting in our table, and I walked to them with my food. I sat, they were talking about a girl or something I don't know.

Me: Hii shbaab
shit I am acting awkward.

Hayfa: Hey shabat
Renad: Okaaayyyy

I started acting weird, and they're starting to notice.

Hayfa: Shfeek?
Me: Haw ma feni shy
Renad: Wsh 3ndk?
Me: Ma 3ndi shy!

Ugh I have to tell them

Hayfa: Yalla spill it, wsh 3ndk!

Now I really have to tell them! They know somethings up.

Me: 3ndy 5br 5ays bs 7lo bs 5ays?
Hayfa and Renad: Wshu hw??
Me: Baba 9ar 3ndu sh3'la lazm ysweeha b America, w we all have to go...

Their faces changed 100%, I can see the mixed emotions in their eyes, they obviously don't know how to react.
But I understand. I didn't know how to react either.

Hayfa: hah?
Renad: omg.
Me: I know. Bs it's only 1 or 2 years, w ra7 njee bl ejazat wla entm tjoon, alzbda it's not that bad!
Hayfa: Bs ra7 nshtag lk!
Me: Please don't cry.
Renad: 6yb mta btro7on?
Me: Bl 9eef bnro7..
Hayfa: Bs noo!!!!!

I can see the tears filling their eyes. ugh no!!!

Me: La t97oon , 5la9 ha4a shy by9eer enshalla, w bs sana wla snteen bl ktheer, fa enshalla btkono b5eer, w fe Skype, w fe 6yarat, w fe BBM, w fe mlyon alf zg, I know i'm being a bitch right now, bs please imagine how I felt.

I didn't want to cry, but my voice started to crack, I WILL not be crying.

Hayfa: 5la9 we'll be fine, can we please change the subject?
Renad: Yalla it's only one year, it's fine, some people leave for 8 years!

Well this went better than I expected!

Me: Yes, thank you! please stay this positive.
Them: n7awl.

We started laughing for no reason.
Everyone tried to change the subject.
It's not a big deal.
Right?

H A Y F A ' S P . O . V

But? No? Why? She's my best friend she can't leave me! Yes, I have Renad, but Ghaida's closer.
Hayfa shut up and be positive, I should be happy for her, she should have fun! 
Yes, I am extremely sad, but as a good friend I should support her, and also she might be struggling a lot.

I went to buy a water bottle, and then, there she was; Hadeel.
Great, just great let's make things even more awkward.
She stared at me like she wanted to talk to me, smiling? 
I smiled back to be polite, then she came closer.
Shit, she wants to talk.

Hadeel: Um enty Hayfa 9a7?

Oh pretend like you don't know me bitch.
Two can play this game.

Me: Ewa, w enty?
Hadeel: Hadeel, Rana galt le 3nk!
I smiled, LIES. 
Me: Aha ya zenha hhhh
Hadeel: w ee 9a7,

She came closer to and whispered something in my ear that just made my freeze in place.

WHAT DOES SHE WANT!