Fearless: Ch. 8

I haven't posted in like a week and I feel so bad.
Anyway since I seem to never have time to post, hopefully I will be posting every two days, or at least once a week.
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Me: 6yb leeh Majid ma galy enha tje w ttmel7 3ndu
Ghaida: Mara7 ygoolk 6b3n
Me: ugh
Ghaida: Ma 3leek mnha, ma 36aha wjh a9ln
Me: 97, a9ln I don't care!

Really, I don't , I shouldn't anyway!

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Anyway, I tried to forget about the whole Hadeel thing, and then Juju's cake came and we all sang "Happy Birthday to you Happy Birthday dear Juju Happy Birthday to you!" Her smile was from ear to ear as she saw the princess formed cake, I could tell she was the happiest person in the room, so innocent, so young, so happy! I know this might sound childish or selfish, or just stupid, but I was jealous of my little sister. Not because of her beautifully colored hair, or her pretty face, or her party, but I was jealous because she was young with no worries, the smallest things made her day, she was happy all the time, she is living her childhood. I really wish I had no worries, and that I had a pure soul of happiness, but I don't, and life is hard...

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"Hayfaaa did you forget something?" Juju said smiling at me, "E7m my gift e7m" she said making a pouty face. "Ana? Ana ansa my little sister? T9dgeen 3ad nseet" I said jokingly waiting for a reaction, "Tmz7een 9a7?" Juju said acting "mad", I went up to my room and brought her gift in a juicy bag, I bought her a juicy charm bracelet with a ballerina charm, I thought it was cute specially since she loves to dance ballet. "Omg Hayfaaa a7bbbkkkkk" She said as she opened the gift, again she was the happiest , and that made me happy to be honest. "w ana akthr 7bebty" I said hugging her. 

The party ended and all the kids left, except for two kids, Ghaida and Renad. "Hayfa bga cake ju3ana!!" Said Renad, "Eee bga cake tben ajeb?" I replied "AJAL Y3NI BS2L 3N ALCAKE LEEH?" Renad yelled at me. "Wj3 hdy hdy 7seet w7sh" 
I went to bring the cake, and then I saw my phone lighting up so I checked it.
Oh yeah, Renad is sleeping over, Ghaida couldn't though.

2 Twitter notifications
3 BBM notifications

I checked twitter, nothing special.
I checked BBM, 1 BC , 1 message from Renad, 1 message from Majid.
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Renad: PING!!!
Renad: Jebee wrg 3enab w coke plz
Hayfa: Yooh 6yb

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Majid: Hey Pretty..
HE CALLED ME PRETTY HE'S FLIRTING HE TOTALLY LOVES ME NYAAAHAHAAHHAHAHA
Hayfa: Hiiii
Majid: What's up?
Hayfa: Renad's sleeping over and bossing me around :c
Majid: Leeh ma 3zmteni m3ha :(
Hayfa: La 3eeb =))
Majid: tfkeerk al3eeb bs bg3d asolf m3k we're just friends remember 3-|?
a7.. what did he mean by that.
Hayfa: Ajl al mara althanya t3al ma3 Ghaida
Majid: akeeeed ma 3leek =))

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I brought the food to Renad, we watched a movie, if you consider listening to people while you text is watching a movie, then we slept. Renad left later on after we woke up.
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Ghaida called me and she's acting a bit weird, is she not telling me something?

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G H A I D A ' S   P O V

You're probably wondering why I'm acting odd with Hayfa, and why I didn't sleep over the other night. Well, this might explain everything for you.

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Y E S T E R D A Y

"Mama 3adi anam 3nd Hayfa elyoom?" I asked my mom over the phone, "La 7bebty lazm trj3en albet alyom fe mw9'o3 lazm agolk hwa, w a9ln alswag bl6reeg." She said, "Aha okay," I said weirded out, "Yala bye." I said as I hung up. 

Me: Hayfa 7bebty enshalla mara thanya
Hayfa: Afa leeh?
Me: Alswag bl6reeg w shwy w yo9l
Hayfa: Amaa :((
Me: Yalla enshalla mara thanya!
Hayfa: Enshalla!

The driver came and picked me up, I went home,
Me: Mama w9lt albeet!
No response.

I went upstairs to my room, washed my face, wore my PJs, and then went to the living room.
There they were, my parents, and my siblings. I have two sisters, Sara the eldest sister, then Lulu. And then I have my brother, he's older than me by 4 years. 
Anyway,

Me: Alsalammu 3leekm.
I kissed my parent's foreheads then sat next to my brother.
Me: Wsh alsalfa?
I was getting scared, this isn't how my family normally acts!
Mama: 3ndna 5br kwys bs mu kwys b nfs al wgt..
We all started asking questions all at once.
Baba: Ra7 nroo7 America sana aw snteen 3shan 3ndi sh3'l hnak.

At that moment, I didn't know how to react. Should I be happy? Sad? Excited? Mad? I don't know. I just couldn't believe what I heard.
Of course all my siblings started questioning and stuff, and I was just there thinking.
This isn't something I control , I can't change this, I have to go with my family.
How am I gonna tell Hayfa, how am I gonna leave my friends and family, how am I gonna make friends there.
Am I gonna be a total outsider? "The Saudi" ? Am I gonna even make friends? How am I gonna survive a day without my best friends, how about with out anyone I know besides my parents and siblings?

All those thoughts flooded my mind, until it exploded and before I knew it I was in my room crying my eyes out. How did I get here without even knowing? I have no idea.
I was just there, crying, with a mind flooded with negative thoughts.

You might think i'm over reacting, maybe I am, but no one can escape their own thoughts and feelings.

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Saturday, March 4th 2013.

H A Y F A ' S  P O V

So it's Tuesday morning, I hate mornings. I woke up, did my morning routine, got dressed, went to school.
There she was, Hadeel. I never noticed her before, but she was really pretty, I mean I could be prettier, but she was still pretty and attractive. The kind of girl that would attract guys? But not in a slutty way of course.

First period, boring.

Second period, B O R I N G.

Third period, I'm getting random pings weird.
Me: Miss, can I go to the bathroom?
Teacher: Yes, don't take too long.
Me: Yeah.

I went to the bathroom (allah ykrmkm), and then went into one of the stalls to check my phone. Then I heard two girls going in.

Girl #1 : Omg lazm awreek aish gal
Girl #2: Yalla wreniiiiiii
Girl #1: Gal Hadoolty a7bk w mn zman 7abk ....

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